How to find all my posts on the internet! :)

(Before I say anything else, I gotta say that I haven't been able to find the password for this email address I'm using for this website, LOL. So if anyone emailed me to this address, I haven't read it! I'm sorry!)

Hey everyone. :) Obviously this is my blog, here at Wix! I originally started posting using the name XebelRebel at another website though: www.socialanxietysupport.com/forums

Most people call that site "SAS", and it's hard to find in the web searches I've performed. So yeah! I started posting at SAS as XebelRebel in 2019.

Here are the other names I've used at SAS before that. "Oceanid Anchoress" (starting in 2017), and "Atargatis Oorial" (starting in 2018). I made a lot more posts as Oceanid Anchoress compared to Atargatis Oorial. All my SAS names have mermaid themes, LOL! :P Like my name XebelRebel is about the character Mera from Aquaman comics. But I never read Aquaman comics... I only know the character Mera from the movie (which I haven't seen for a long time).

You can find most of my posts as Oceanid Anchoress using this link, I think. https://www.socialanxietysupport.com/search/158292/ You might need to be logged in, but I think that URL has a saved search for all my posts. Or you can search the SAS forums for my posts under the name Oceanid Anchoress yourself (you can search for nothing at the top of the forums, in the search box -- then put "Oceanid Anchoress" in the name field of the advanced search and do a search for blank again). There are supposed to be about 204 posts under that name. Sorting the posts by date is going to put them in the order that I wrote them. Also -- you need to be logged into an account to find the largest amounts of posts using the search function.

You can find all my posts as Atargatis Oorial using this link. https://www.socialanxietysupport.com/search/158297/ (Again, you can search the forum yourself if it doesn't work). There are 44 posts under that name.

I think the best way to find all my posts is using the search function, if you learn how to use it well. I don't click on the little box that appears when you search for a person's username -- but I don't know if that makes much difference. Lots of things might affect how many posts show up though, so that's why I'm mentioning precise details to explain exactly how I found 99% of my posts.

Here is my SAS forum profile for XebelRebel (the only name I use at SAS now... and I never used more than one name at the same time).

https://www.socialanxietysupport.com/members/xebelrebel.975027/

You can find all my posts as XebelRebel using this link. https://www.socialanxietysupport.com/search/158302/

You can also click the numbers listed under "replies" and "discussions created", on my XebelRebel SAS profile. I currently have 408 posts as XebelRebel, as of 15:48pm British time, 09/09/2023.

My personality is very different now. I used to be very anxious, with a lot of internalised misogyny -- and I talked weird! :) I talk less weird now. That's the short version of why my personality was so different then. You can read all the posts to try and understand the long version of why my personality was so different before (but I don't recommend it for people who don't think it's important to know every little thing that happened). There are a small number of things that I'm sure I never actually wrote: for example, I never wrote that thing about Mary Bennet and Mr Darcy, LOL! I wrote that I wanted Mary Bennet and Wonder Woman to be a lesbian couple, but I never wrote that I wanted Mary Bennet and Mr Darcy to get together. I probably wrote most of the stuff wondering if I'm bisexual though (I'm not bisexual) -- but I think I probably didn't write all of that stuff. Only some of it! :( I want to be dildoed by another girl, which is a desire that I struggled with back then. I still struggle with it to be honest. I don't want to have sex with men though.

I create all my own memories in the present, because I exist outside of time. I'm creating the past now, just thinking about the idea of "the past". Because of this, I can't promise that everything is going to be consistent within my own story. I'm not a liar though. And unfortunately my own story about who I am got edited by two other beings at various points, for various reasons. It might be easier to simplify everything and not mention any of this -- but I want to be truthful, so I'm just saying what happened even though it's weird. Some people might not believe me... but whatever! I know the truth.

The whole reason why I'm making this post, now, is for the sake of being completely honest. I'm not posting this for anyone specifically. I just want people to be able to access all the things I posted at www.socialanxietysupport.com/forums even though some of the things I said in the past aren't very helpful for making me seem like a good person, or even likeable at all. The thing is though... I figure that people are gonna be able to see that my explanations for everything are consistent, overall. I might not be able to guarantee perfect consistency in what I've said about "the truth" -- because I'm literally creating everything, including the past, in the present, now (and because all sorts of other weirdness went on before) -- but I'm sure people who read everything I said are gonna know that I haven't lied about anything. I always spoke the truth!