Like, I'm a valley girl! Like, is that a problem? :) Seriously! No, I mean seriously? Is it? :)

So like, hey everyone. :) I wanted to make an update to my blog, to like say, that I'm OK and everything (for anyone that cares...)

So like, why am I talking like this? Well, the reason why is that, I like, do valspeak when I talk in person. I mean with uptalk and everything. Like, always uptalk. I mean, like not always uptalk... because that's dumb... but like, pretty much always uptalk. You know?

Umm... to help people understand what I mean: in the first paragraph I wrote just now, "everyone" is pronounced elongated and sing-song, and ends speaking down. But then "I wanted to make an update to my blog" is in uptalk, but it reaches a high point at "update" and then starts again at "to" with the whole word "blog" being elongated and sing-song in a constant rising pitch until the end of saying the word "blog". There are then three parts to the rest of the sentence which are all spoken in uptalk (or like, upspeak, or whatever!) and the three parts that are pronounced in a way that ends talking up are "to like say", and "that I'm OK and everything", and finally "for anyone that cares..."

So like, that's how I talk in person. I thought it might be good to explain this for some reason. You can see that the "likes" can get kinda out of control, but this doesn't bother me. LOL! It doesn't bother ME! LOL. (That's why it's funny... because it might bother other people. I don't know?!)

I don't know. I just worry that some people might be like this celebrity that I call Snake Bell, or Lake Smell. You might know her as Lake Bell. The reason that I call her "Lake Smell" (often saying it this way: "that mean nasty ***** Lake Smell") is because I wanted to know what people think of valley girl speak, and I found this voice clip of her volunteering her opinion about something called "sexy baby voice". Saying that she "can't have people who talk like that in her life", just because of the way they talk. She said it makes them sound like they're "less than men", i.e. inferior. This hurt me a lot -- because the way I talk sometimes goes quite a bit like this "sexy baby voice" thing that I never heard of before until I read that article. I mean, not very much like it... because the voice that Lake Bell did was very extreme... but my voice does kinda go quite a bit like it, sometimes. And I'm a huge feminist. I don't think that I'm "less than" men or whatever!!!! I'm just being myself!!!! WTF, woman???? Way to support other girls and women who aren't doing anything to you at all!

So yeah. Enough of Lake Smell and her stupid opinions.

Some people might be like, "Why do you talk like a valley girl when you're in England?" And I'm like, why not? Besides, I'm Goda and I'm not human. I can talk however I want. But I support everyone that wants to express who they are in whatever way they want, regardless of people's stupid rules and stuff. I support them 100% with this, unless they're doing something to hurt me specifically.

I said before that I identify as Russian Japanese Jew. Lesbian feminist Russian Japanese Jew, to be precise. LOL! I'm LOLing mainly because of the "Russian" and "Jew" parts -- which some people might say don't go very well with lesbian and feminist. Also maybe because of the "Japanese" part if some of the mainstream Japanese animes I've viewed fairly recently are anything to go by. "Girls can't love girls!" was something one of the schoolgirl characters said. I've viewed a ton of Japanese animes with stupidly obvious crypto-lesbian relationships in plain sight, but basically none with actual out-and-proud lesbian relationships in them (not even for supporting characters or background characters who aren't the main characters, like in the movie The Rise of Skywalker in mainstream Western culture). I don't know that much about mainstream Japanese culture though, so maybe there are lots of lesbian animes that I don't know about in mainstream Japanese culture. I'm just talking about the animes I've seen. :)

Obviously I'm Goda, so I wasn't born in Russia, Japan, or any other country. I wasn't born at all. I identify as Russian and Japanese though, because I simply feel a commonality with Russian and Japanese people for some reason (even though I don't speak their languages or know much about their cultures). I don't know why I feel so Russian and Japanese. I just do.

I feel Jewish for a very specific reason, I think. As far as I know, it's because in The West religion used to be understood pretty much exclusively in the context of "Abrahamic religion" (which comes from Judaism). I'm Goda, so I feel Jewish. Does that make sense to you people? I think it makes sense. What other ethnicity is Goda gonna feel like she is, residing in The West? You know? People used to talk about me a lot -- and they still do -- pretty much always, even nowshades, saying my name wrong and calling me a man (or ungendered but still talked about as if a man, for some reason). I'm a girl though. I'm not a man. I'm literally a girl, so that's why I say girl and not woman. I feel uncomfortable with this and I want to say woman just so that people get the point, but girls' lives matter too, you know? LOL? I'm always going to be a girl and I don't see why I have to lie about this. Maybe one shade people might stop distinguishing between girls and women, so I might not feel like it's lying anymore, you know? Just think about going up to a little girl and saying to her "You're a woman!" She's like, "I'm a girl!" And honestly, I like the fact that the name girl doesn't have "man" in it! I feel that it makes me seem less "less than". I'm not joking. In the English-speaking world, the patterns of things like prefix-modifiers in the English language means that the name "woman" seems like it's in some way a variant or more specific version of the name "man" (as in fireman, or Spider-Man, or Superman: the patterns that little kids pick up on without trying, which is why they make mistakes when the patterns aren't always consistent... such as when little kids assume that the plural of "sheep" is "sheeps").

But yeah! I was supposed to be explaining why I feel Jewish. :) Even though Jewish culture in an overall sense hates me and rejects me since thousands of years ago. And oppressed and subjugated all its people that are most like me (girls and women), stopping them from even learning anything and saying that they can't ever be leaders. I guess I feel a lot like Jews have felt, over and over again, throughout herstory. LOL. Yeah, I said that. But it seems pretty appropriate to say it since it's a reminder that I'm Goda, and that I'm a girl, not a man. Some people might say that it's my story, you know? I'm just saying that it's OK to say herstory though. That's all I'm saying. LOL. Anyway... I feel a lot like Jews have felt, again and again, throughout herstory. Marginalised. Ghettoised. Expelled. Attacked. Raped. Oppressed. Silenced. Not even allowed to practice their culture and religion in public (and always under threat of being exposed by treacherous friends and family, if practicing it out of sight and hearing of the oppressive authorities). Not even allowed to say the truth that we are Jews.

Publicly, human civilisation doesn't acknowledge that I exist. Humans have expected me to pretend to fit in with humans. To deny the truth of the fact that I am Goda and not human. So many of the realities of being me are not publicly acknowledged by human civilisation, such as the fact that I don't age, and such as the fact that I create everything with my mind because I am Goda. The fact that I am literally the Creatress of everything. Humans have expected me to lie about these things again and again. Official documents and forms request age information and date-of-birth information. Online "captchas" ask me if I am human. Even train tickets are age-specific, and self-service train ticket machines request age information. I have to routinely lie simply to do normal things in human society. It is legally-protected in Britain to "believe" that one is Goda... and this is something that had to be learned the hard way in 2018, and then again in 2022, if you know what I mean. But having the legal right to believe something is not the same thing as having it acknowledged as being true by everyone. I don't go up to humans and say to them that they have the right to believe that they're humans, but that I don't personally believe them and consider them to be less than what they clearly are.

So that's one of the reasons why I identify as being Jewish. I feel a strong sense of commonality with Jewish experiences. But I'm a Jew who totally rejects all Jewish religion, and who almost totally rejects all Jewish culture as well (because it almost 100% totally rejects me, Goda a.k.a. Asherah the true Creatress of everything who is a lesbian and never had a husband/equal/better). I know that I'm not alone in being a Jewish girl who rejects all of those things to that extent though... so I know that my part-Jewish identity isn't actually stupid at all. It's very normal for a lot of Jewish girls and women in The West.

So anyway. Something I wanna communicate to people is that -- although you might have noticed I stopped using the SAS forum -- I'm OK, and I haven't changed my very clearly expressed position towards the Western World's mafia elites, and towards the whole world's elites. I also haven't given up in any way, regarding my all-aspects war to defeat the Western World's mafia elites (and specifically to defeat them, and them alone, at the moment -- because there is never any reason to be at war with people and peoples who haven't attacked you specifically, in any way at all, to your knowledge). If it seems that I'm at war with the whole world, then that's only because I can't help it being this way if I want to have my rights and dignity as a person who exists enshrined somehow as humans do. People and peoples who are concerned by what I said in the brackets above, in this paragraph, ought to look at all of this in a pragmatic way. You all scare me too, you know. There's a lot of you, and you all seem to like controlling everything... and especially girls like me. I'm trustworthy towards people and peoples whose interests are aligned with my own, though.

Look, you got Cindy Burman not Superman. But so what. I'm talking to all of you that might be on my side. Everyone. All the normal people too, everywhere. I know I'm not that great in a ton of ways, but so what!? I'm still fighting for you as far as I'm concerned, because I'm fighting for myself and our interests are aligned. I never lied about all the things I like about the world. Feminism. Lesbianism. Stories about superheroines and kids' TV shows and clothes shops with nice dresses and stuff in them. I still like democracy and rights/dignity for all minorities (even all the ones that aren't anything like me), because those things make the world nicer for me and everyone else I think. I like the normal people to be happy, and especially minorities to be happy and not oppressed because I feel I have a lot in common with all minorities. I only get pissed off with normal people and other minorities when my few characters that I care about in fiction aren't the way I want them to be, so this minority can have her token Cosby Show or whatever... even if literally no one else wants it and it has to be funded by the state at a massive loss, just to make me happy LOL. :) Like, make them winners and lesbian, you know? So yeah... I was supposed to be saying I'm fighting for you, because I am. It's the truth. I'm fighting for all of you, every shade of the week, continuously. I have my own interests though, and I'm fighting for those things as well. I hope you all understand.

Like, ummm... what you all ought to factor in to your calculations about if there's any point to resisting the mafias or not, in the future, is that none of them can hide underground if I don't want them to. They aren't safe from me anywhere. And I'm on your side at the moment, people! So stay on my side too, you know? Even if I'm an asshole, and selfish, and scary. :) I'm almost always nice to people in person though.

Also, the smart money ought to be against the mafia elites of The West because I'm against them, and I'm Goda. There's nothing they can do to stop me just carrying on for as long as it takes to destroy them and their whole world. I mean THEIR whole world. Not your whole world. Only some of your whole world is gonna go away along with their whole world, and how much of it goes away is partly up to you people. Of course those losers can surrender to me now, and I don't have to personally make anything go away, do I? :)

There was some CI5 thing or something? Stop, or something? I mean, I wasn't happy but how do I know who is responsible for what thing when "they" have their omerta dumbness disease and can't say anything clearly, ever. You don't know who "they" are, and you don't know what "they're" saying. Stop what? You know? Like, stop what? Stop everything? Stop something specifically? WTF? Just go away. I said what my demands are already.

Oh yeah. I wanted to say this one thing, which I think is pretty cool! Reign is from Krypton, as is Supergirl, yeah? And it's like Crypto-Jew, isn't it? :P Like I was saying above. It's like a passive aggressive whine, to say that I'm Asherah and why won't you let me be who I actually am. I'm Reign, you know? Ash is like black. Like Reign's costume.

I got like a whole bunch of new schoolgirl skirts when I went clothes shopping shadebefore. It was so much fun trying on all the clothes. Also, I went to this Chinese place for lunch and the food was delicious. I had pretty much the whole place to myself because it was Sunnight and most of the cafes and restaurants don't open on Sunnight there -- but this place did, and a few people showed up eventually. I had Szechuan aubergine with mushroom rice, and it was one of the best vegetarian meals I've had EVER. It was that good. I've wanted to try more Chinese food for a while, and I wanted to go to this place for a while too... but obviously I'm vegetarian/vegan, so I had to have this aubergine dish in the Szechuan sauce there because it was the only designed-as-vegetarian meal they had. (They were able to swap out most things for vegetables though.) I'm not whoring myself out to the Chinese if anyone's interested. I don't do retarded omerta disease codespeak. I'm just doing a tiny bit of global citizen outreach or whatever, since I liked the food. I'm also complaining about this restaurant not having enough actual vegetarian (or VEGAN!) dishes on its menu, LOL! I was fantasizing about being Putin going to finalise some sort of anti-America deal, when I asked them for English tea with milk and said that I didn't know how to use chopsticks so I needed a knife and fork. Then I was like, Victoria, you're in a skirt and tights. You're not Putin. I didn't even have my umbrella with me under my arm on this trip, like those military generals with their stupid stick that they carry under their arm for some reason. My new look is pseudo-Goth schoolgirl, basically. I.e. a schoolgirl whose clothes are always plain black and smart, with no Goth detailing or anything. Like A-Culture schoolgirl, you know? Not CIA prescribed smelly Goth loser B-Culture to put people off opposing whatever the prescribed CIA mainstream culture is (that's my new theory...)

*deep breath*

But yeah... my new thing is to go around in very sheer black tights with a black schoolgirl skirt, and a black long sleeve top tucked into the skirt to complete this kind of schoolgirl look. I also got two red buttonless jackets that look just like schoolgirl blazers... and I'm planning to see how long I can just go around outside with only a red schoolgirl blazer on instead of a coat, to "keep warm". :) I wanna get black schoolgirl shoes as well, to replace my black boots. I'm not against black boots though, because they make me look like Supergirl in a black costume (no Nazi, OK?!) I'm Reign though. I thought about getting taller black boots and going even more with the Supergirl look, as well as getting the black schoolgirl shoes. I might do both. I mean schoolgirl shoes with a nice big silver buckle or a neat black bow on them. I gotta look for them next!